today ; 300906

went to hand up NYAA
dhen meet gracey granny at ard 1plus when its raining so heavily ?!
we went to take LRT to SK
dhen MRT to HOUGANG
dhen 72 to the haircut SALON . wahahas . yayyay !!
i tot i could cut my hair immediately
budd dere were SO MANYY ppl lahs .
diaos -

dhen went to buy bubble tea .
both of us ordered HONEYDEW SAGO ;
walaos .
the woman dunno how to make de lahs .
dhen she go ask the boss how to make -.-
the boss oso dunno how to go help her mehh ?
dhen in the end we both drank a VERY DISGUSTING SAGO -.-
some more the AUNTY got attitude problem de lahs .
i order ltr dhan grace dhen she say 'jus now i ask you , you dunno how to say meh?'
i dulan dhen i ans , 'NOW I SAY LIAO RYTE ?!'
walaos .
attitude de lahs she .
eeyeer .
so damn yuck disgusting lahs -.-

hmmm . we reached dere at the salon at abt 1 plus 2
budd guess whad time did we had our haircut ??
5plus luhs !!
we waited like for 3 or 4 hours ?!
so long lahs !!

dhen he cut me n grace's hair so fast lahs .
sians .
wasted our time on waiting .
bleahs ~

had the same hairstyle as gracey granny now (:
yayyay !!
hmmm . dhen granny gotta go home ,
so i went to SK to wait for baobei n precious ,
cos we going baq to schh .
dhen dey were alrdy at rumbia lahs -.-
diaos ~
so i took LRT dere lors .
reached ;
found them ;
got to knw dhis two new girls
dhen like that lahs .
both oso SO FRIENDLY ((:


dhen went to RM to makan ;
actually wanna go foodcourt de
budden saw julian dey all -.-
eeeww !! spoil my mood .
bleahs .
anyways , i rejected hime lahs .
thats why i felt weird talking to him
though he was once my bestest friend
and nearly my std -.-

so went to MAC dhen had MAC NUGGETS (:
eugene came
dhen he kip on disiao-ing me -.-
dhen we sang song so loudly in MAC
dhen everyone looked at the both of us .
wahahas .
so funn .
precious and baobei were so paiseh lahs .
dhen jaslyn came ?!
dhen i saw louisa walked passed me -.-

aft eating , we went baq to school to slack .
once again , without fail ,
i saw zirong again -.-
NOW , its not only HIM but oso HIS GIRLFRIEND (:

walked ard the sch ,
saw jasper and guys .
imiss my grace meimei (: !!
hahas .
natalie n rowena 's gang very irritated by MEILIN ;
dey said she screen-ed me -.-
lmao ~
look jiu look lahs
screen me for whad ?!
not happy with me mehs ?
i oso nvr do anything .
i hugg grace
dhen she not happy mehs ?!
lesbian meh ?
diaos ~

hmmm .
dhen met chinkiat and guys outside schhool .
at baq gate dere -.-

dhen saw the stupid adelaide -.-
so damn DISGUSTING lahs !!
act lian nia cann ?!
sarker only ONE -
step one LIAN nia -.-

i bad mood when saw her
dhen went to RM de arcade slack -
played games .
saw many shuai gers .
wann deir numbers ;
imm JUS JOKING (:

dhen chinkiat called us ,
ask me whr am i
dhen ask baobei to buy candles '

when walking towards bball court ,
dhis girl called me
its irwin's std ; innun ?
i dunno how to spell .
LOLS ~

walaos .
dhen go bball court play FIRE -.-
not scared like that time
we kena caught by police .
LOLS ~
dhen the what HUIMIN came
dhen jaslyn immediately ps me -.-
nvr even tell me she go find her
dhen leave me alone like shit -.-
WHATEVER ~

dhen adelaide not happy with me
dhen insulted me .
luckily at first i dunno .
dhen precious dey all go scold her
she step one lian nia ~
only knw how to step one innocent
dhen behind kar so much LJ wei ~
same as her ~
( NOT LOUISA -)
and i dunno why is LOUISA in my pri schh
and whad is she doing dere -.- !?

dhen dey went off .
i dulan
dhen i went to RM
slacked ~
saw ben yeo (:
he called me .
wahahas .
ilovehim !!
he's so cute .
dhen saw timotheus also -.-
that flirt ?! -.-
i dunno ~
when he saw baobei n precious ,
his face changed ,
i nvr look at him
cos i dont like him liaos -.-
for ur information ,
he's my first std (:

lols ~
dhen went to kovan with jas to buy mummy's stuff -.-
luckily reached dere jus in time
if not ,
the shop close dwn liaos -
dots !
nowadays teh shops all so early close de sia -.-

dhen went to minitoons to buy sweets for tml 's service
dhen took LRT home -.-

hmmm .
dhen now posting lors -.-
many things happened today
(shall kip my mouth shut unless you ask me -.-)


hmmm .
ilovegrace granny
ilove tiaraFOUR -
ilove everyone ard me !!

hais .
quarrelled with dear ):
all his fault lahs -
ask him to come RM to pey me
dhen he say what ;
he got alot of pimples
dhen whad he paiseh -.-
please lahs .
tml i oso meeting him whad .
and he oso wun paiseh de lahs .
dunn wann meet
dhen say dunn wann meet lahs .
act whad sia .
give SO MANY EXCUSES -.-
dhen i dulan again lahs .
he knws im in bad mood
dhen i wann him pey me
budd he like that ;
WADAHELL lahs -.-
dhen told him off lahs ;
dhen now i dunno if i wanna meet him tml or not lor -.-



GOODNIGHT ppl (:
gonna miss you all esp my tiaraFOUR (:
for the time being ,
im NOT GONNA MISS dear AT ALL -.-


yayyay !!
cannot wait for tml's church service !!
hmmm .
tml got post encounter sia .
budd im not going lahs
cos gotta bring granny dey all to church mahhs .
dunno if dear is gonna turn up or not -.-
whatever lahs !!
i dont care !!
cya guys tml ((:
GOD BLESS-ed (:

boring !!

hmmm . many things happened during these few days !!
well , ilovehim (:

dar , as time passes , i knw fate brought us baq tgt again (:
my faded feelings are baq . so are urs .

perhaps we are jus meant to be tgt ya (:
but i knw ill make dhis very serious decision that
i have to decide weather or not to go baq to the past .

i thought thru and i knw i shldnt .
i rather we still remain as the closest best frens ever than to have a deeper misunderstanding in the future .

i knw and ill follow where my heart leads me to .
i follow where my feeling goes .
and dhis time ,
i knw my feelings for you is NO LONGER STRONG ANYMORE -

i dont wanto hurt anyone ,
i knw who i truly love .
i knw whats happening ard me ,
ill allow nature to take its cause (:


yes dar , iloveyou
but jus a love as a FRIEND ;
an ORDINARY FRIEND !


now that i have found who i truly love ,
you shld congrats me then .
i knw you will get to knw more better girls in the future (:


im gonnna miss you dearly -
takecares . lovelove . byebye (:

todays .
exams -.-
eng and chinese paper1 . dots .
obviously i flunk it lahs .
chinese is confirm CMI de .
ENGLISH still so-so .


aft exam , went to look for the unreasonable VINCENT sir
because he asked me to look for him -.-
dots !
he scolded me again .
he like one day nvr scold me will die sia .
he's jus SO IRRITATING .
let me tell everyone dhis ;
if one day VINCENT TOH JUNJIE gets on my nerves ,
he go beyond my limits whr i set ,
im gonna teach him a lesson .
to me , he's a SIR . SO WHAD ?!
whats e use of being a SIR when he loves to insult ?
he is not a VI at all actually .
i didnt wanna expose him ,
but he forced me to .

if one day he go beyond my limits and whr i set ,
i promise ill follow khairul's foot steps and LEAVE REDCROSS !!

i did my very best for redcross .
when i nid to collect all level consent forms ,
ppl doesnt wanna hand up to me ,
what cann i do ? FORCE them ?

VINCENT SIR , you dont even knw whad problems am i facing NOW ,
and PLEASE ,
its NOT EASY to be a VICE-CHAIRPERSON cum DISCIPLINE HEAD cum OVERALL LEVEL in charge !! im ONE PERSON with only A PAIR OF HANDS . how much cann i do ? im CARRYING THREE POSTS !! yes i do love my posts but somethimes VINCENT is jus SO UNREASONABLE !! i dont like the way he treat me . im the kinda girl who gets bullied by ppl !!

whatever . darlyn n me went home to change and went to bugis whereas jaslyn n grace cant tagg along with us ): BOO !! hmmm . darlyn n i met up dhen went shopping . woahs !! we bought really ALOT lahs . i bought my CROWN BELT !! yayyay !! and the pants that i long wannted !! wahahas . oops =x

THANK GOD that daddy gave me money for shopping !! woohoo !! daddy you rawk (:

well , aft bugis , took MRT and LRT to sir's block to meet joan to hand up my NYAA booklet ): troublesome sir . hmmm . dhen darlyn n i walked to RP to revise our hmwk . she started off wit science and i started off with maths at KFC (: hmmm . yayyay !! dear and dar msg-ed me at the same time . dar called me dhen chatted for awhile dhen i put dwn liaos . hahas . hmmm . was rather cold towards dar these few days cos was moody though . at least we both tolerated each other . hahas . ilovehim !! dar you rawk my whole . of course not forgetting abt dear lahs -.-

hmmm . went home at ard 10plus ?! today was really so funn to go out with darlyn . by all these words cant even describe my funn that i had with darlyn . hmmm . but its more than words to decribe how funn the outing was . i really enjoyed myself though i knw i scored badly for chinese ):


anyways , taiji all settle liaos . dont come find taiji for me , ur life will be PEACEFUL , get me ? lols -.- dont think i dunno whats going on ard dhis world ya . you msg-ed my baobei ya ? how disgusting cann you ever get ?! well , i guess you jus gotta act for ur WHOLE LIFE . might as well , you go be an artist ?! duh =.=


takecares peeps . exams are here !! please study hard !! gonna kip ALL OF U in prayers ya (: lovelove . takecare of ur own health alright (:

1.what do you do when you're mad? go ard screaming ; jumping ; laughing ; dancing ?
2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? danced in public ??
3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad? nope (: what kind of MAD are you describing ?
4. ever physically hurt someone when you were mad? definately i do (:
5. do you curse when you're mad? NO I DONT !!

Crying Section*

1. last time you cried your heart out ? a few months ago ?
2. ever cried yourself to sleep? yepp . forgotten when but its bcos of ALFRED -.-
3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yepp (:
4. do you cry when you get an injured? no i don't . im not a cry baby ?
5. do certain songs make you cry? yepps ): me n his past memories ; songs he sang (:

Pain Section*.

1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else? scold ? hit ?
2. how depressed can you get? super duper when i really am .

*Happy Section*

1. how/when much do u smile? everyday ?
2. what can make you happy? all my precious in MY LIFE (:
3. do you wish you were happier? of course . more than willing to (:
4. what about being with your friends, does that make u happy? definately !!

Love Section*.

1. have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them? definately NO !! its really stupid to do so (:
2. did you ever love a person, and tell him/her that you love him/her? yepps , i do (:
3.have you loved someone so much, it made you cry? teuh !! of course luhs -.-
4.has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you? yepp (:

Hate Section*

1. have you ever hated any one that broke your heart? yups !
2. do you hate Bush? as in george bush ?

Self-Esteem Section*

1. is your self-esteem extremely low? its acceptable (:
2. do you believe in yourself ? having faith in urself is a first step n beginning of everything (:
3. what do you say when people say they think youare good looking/pretty? oh no !! i dont (:
4. are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly,dumb, and fat? yepp , im one of those (:
5. ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought you weren't good enough? nope -.-
6. are you happy with who you are? hmmm . mayb (:

well ; i have got SOME THING TO SAY !!

some ppl are jus LIFELESS ? NO MANNERS ? RUDE !!

ya . thats YOUR PROBLEM so why do i care ?! did i say i don't believe it ? oh ya . weather i do or do not , its MY PROBLEM ; true enuff (: in my LIFE , i have NVR seen SUCH A rude GIRL before (: ASKING ppl to 'diam diam' at the beginning of the POST !! well , if you wanna ask ppl to KEEP QUIET , ask in a POLITE WAY . dont ask ppl to 'diam diam' . well , you wanna say that it takes A RUDE PERSON TO SAY PPL RUDE , i have NTH TO say . the WAY you talk and THE WAY i talk , is TOTALLY DIFFERENT !! im NOT RUDE AT ALL . well , if im rude , i wun be AS RUDE AS YOU (: you wanna diam diam dhen you diam urself . dunn ask ppl to diam . ppl are NOT UR DOG . you dunn like ppl to treat u as dog , dhen dunn treat ppl like a DOG !!


now , i shall answer to YOUR NONSENSE QUESTIONS (:

first , dunnn act one lian and talk likethat in the blog . everyone knws you are jus a COWARD !! wanna blog abt me ? and my dar ? why DON'T jus put my dar's REAL NAME ?! don't dare uh ?! haha ! i knew it . WHO CARES !?! YOU WANNA say that it takes a coward to say ppl coward , TRY ME NOT ?! why not ? oh PLEASE ~ you knw that you will hurt ppl's feeling ? come on , UR BEST FRENS ARD you have betrayed you !! whatever you ask dem not to say out , dey all TOLD ME (: please ~ you mean my dar's face looked unbalanced to u ?! some ppl say that u said he's handsome . well , ask you said my dar's face is unbalanced ya ? and i have a same VERSE for you (: it TAKES A UNBALANCED FACE to say ppl with an UNBALANCED FACE (: well , WHO IS SAYING and MAKING THE MATTER SO BIG NOW ?! u asked yourself , its you ALRIGHT !! asking ppl to diam in the first place is already damn making things BIG ! ilovehim is MY PROBLEM . so you dunn have to WONDER SO MUCH . and WHATEVER `

OH YAYAYAYA . whatever you wanna say . everyone knws that im innocent . i really am . well , since you wanna INSULT ME , i have NTH better to say but "it takes a insulted person to insult others" (:

i have to clear things up . if you say that im a christain in THAT SACARSTIC WAY , whatever it is . at least im able to be a christain and i have the FREEDOM to repent but CANN YOU ?! no you cannt !! jus too bad . at least i dunn use vulgarities anymore . thats my promise to GOD (: i knw whr i stand as a christain now n in the past . who dont have a PAST ?! yes , my past is MISERABLE but you dunno how much i enjoyed myself with my darls and dudes ? smoke ? fight ? whatever it is . its all past . now that i have a new start and if GOD is FOR ME , who cann go AGAINST ME ? whatmore its you ?! ask urself , who are you first ? a DEVIL'S CHILD (: i have NVR say abt ppl's religion bfore . even now , though you said abt mine , i wun say abt urs still but im jus describing who you look MORE LIKE ?! thats what you did to me too !!

whatever luhs . you said you deleted alfred's contact ? sure bo ? that time alfred jus told me you msged him . iya . dunn tell lies when you are opening ur eyes okays (: hmmm . whatever okays . i DONT CARE ABT ALL THESE ANYMORE !! and you nvr had the right to say me cos you are more like that person . you actually asked for her email address ya ? but didnt get to accept so u gave up to gang up wit her and now you wanna say i behaved like her ya ? oh WHATEVER (: i dont give a damn really !!

whatever . everything has past . i have promised GOD that i will forgive YOU but i will nvr FORGET what you have done (: thanks for all the hurts -


ilovetiaraFOUR still the most (: of course not forgetting the first priority in my life which is GOD (:

6 signs to show weather you are falling for some one (:

1- as soon as you get online - whosname do youlook at first...
2- when you hear your phone ringing - who do youhope it is calling....
3- when a love song comes on the radio - whosfacecomes to your mind...
4- whos name makes your heart skip a beat everytime you hear it
5- who is it that you always find yourself thinkingabout - wondering if they're thinking about you
6- the whole time you were reading this bulletin,there was only one person on your mind .

1. How tall are you? only 152cm (:

2. whats ur status ? single (:

3. Do you own a gun ? dont ask STUPID QUESTION !!

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would be the cause of it? i have NO IDEA (:

5. How many letters are in your crush's name? 6

6. What do you think of hot dogs? come on , ask my darlings how i find hotdogs . hahas !!

7. What's your favorite christmas song? hmmm . you wann me to sing it out for you -.-

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? honey (:

9. Do you do push-ups? yes , i do . redcross luhs . come on .

10. Have you ever done ecstasy? nopes (:

11. have u fought? TEUH . look at MY PAST and you will FULLY UNDERSTAND it (:

12. Do you like the rain? most of the time ? when i have trainings of cos i do love it (:

13.Do you own a knife? of course . who will be that POOR to not have a knife ?

14. What do you smell like? like my ADIDAS perfume ? wahahas . lols .

15. Full initials? DUDE .

16. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment. studies ; post ; GOD !!

17. Name the last 3 things you have bought today? food ; M&Ms ; choco poky !!

18. Name five drinks u regularly drink, in order most to least. plain water ; coke ; ice lemon tea ; green tea ; winter melon (:

19. What time did you wake up today? 6.45 am ?

20. Can you spell? dont ask STUPID QUESTION !! of course i cann -.-

21. Current worry? studies ; relationship wit GOD ; redcross committe post ):

22. Current hate? PHYLLIS . bcos she baqstab me in front of ALFRED but too bad . now alfred hates her too (:

23. Favorite place to be? BEDOK ; places where i always hang out with my sisters n brothers and most imptly tiaraFOUR (:

24. Least favorite place to be? SCHOOL (:

25. Where would you like to go? clubbing . have funn . town ; shop like crazy (:

26. Do u own slippers? like obviously ?! TEUH !!

27. What do you think u'll be doing if i look psychicto u? run around ?!

28. Do u burn or tan??! come on . its too direct !! im dead TANNED bcos of 30hrs of NYAA swimming (:

29.Yellow or blue? BLUE

30. Would you be a pirate? maybe ill consider (:

31.Last time your cell rang? just only ?

32. What songs do u sing in the shower? how many do you wann ?

33. What did u fear was going to get u at night as a child? dark room ?!

34. What's in your pockets right now? NOTHING ?!

35. Last thing that made u laugh? ALFRED FOO SIK BOON !!

36. Best comfort on bed u ever had? PIKA CHU (:

37. Worst injury u've ever had? HEART-BROKEN INJURY ?

38. most frequent described character? I DONT GET WHAT IT MEANS (:

39. How many TVs do u have in your house? 4 ?

40. Who is your loudest friend? PLENTY .

41. Who is your most silent friend? NOT MUCH , maybe huijia ?

42. Does someone have a crush on u? NOPE ):

43. Do u wish on stars? no .

44. What is your favorite book? none ?

45. What song did u last hear? hips dont lie (:

46. What were u doing 12AM last night? messaging ALFRED FOO (:

47. What was the first thing u thought of when uwoke up today? shit ! im late for school !!

LOOK !! WHAT DOES UR NAME MEANS ??

A- You curse alot.
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- You have a fine ass.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- you live to have fun.
M- one to have fun.
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- one of the best damn bf/gf no one could ask for.
Z- Always ready.




and my name is CHEEYEN (:
wanna check it out ?!

C ; You're wild and crazy
H ; You have a very good personality and looks
E ; Damn good kisser
E ; Damn good kisser
Y ; one of the best damn bf/gf no one could ask for
E ; Damn good kisser
N ; You are dead sexy



anyways people !! dhis is jus FOR LAUGH . its NOT TRUE at all (: lovelove (:

my next survey (: gonna blog soon . after this i guess (:


1.[ ] Lose a lover
-or-
[x] Love a loser

2.[ ] Never see again
-or-
[x] Never speak again

3.[ ] Run 2 miles straight
-or-
[x] Walk 8 miles

4.[x] Go to the beach
-or-
[ ] Have a milkshake

5.[x] Laugh when no one else is
-or-
[ ] Not laughing while everybody else is

6.[ ] Drink 10 cans of soda at once
-or-
[x] Never drink soda again

7.[x] Have your pants rip
-or-
[ ] Get thrown in a trash can

8.[x] Work at Mcdonalds
-or-
[ ] Join the army

9.[ ] Kiss someone you don't like
-or-
[x] Have someone kiss you who doesn'tlike you but you like them

10.[ ] Not take a bath for a week
-or-
[x] Take a bath in a lake

11.[ ] Be an only child
-or-
[x] Have 5 siblings

12.[x] Cry in front of 5000 strangers
-or-
[ ] Cry in front of your whole school

13.[ ] Win a million dollars
-or-
[x] Get the love of your life

14.[ ] Be able to rewind time
-or-
[x] See the future

15.[x] Be hated for who you are
-or-
[ ] be loved for who you're not

16.[x] Die the day after the best day of yourlife
-or-
[ ] Live until the age of 90 with everydaybeingokay but you not being so happy

17.[ ] Be absolutely gorgeous
-or-
[x] Have a really great personality

18.[x] go skydiving
-or-
[ ] Go scuba diving

19.[x] Be loved by one person whom youreally like-
or-
[ ] Have 10 people who like you so thenyou canpick which ones hottest

20.[x] Have one absolutely amazing kiss
-or-
[ ] Have 40 okay kisses

21.[ ] Love and lose
-or-
[x] Never love at all

22.[x] Be friends with someoneyou absolutely hate
-or-
[ ] Have friends who absolutely hate you

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMESSTARTS WITH A "S"
A: sunita

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: mummy

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?:
A: when you are bored , you cann sms me ? i can pei you msg .

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: yes .

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: quite ?

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: no time for concert at all -.-

Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOURLIFE?
A: my precious peeps in my LIFE (:

Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A: "sia lah~ bodoh ~"

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE:
A: M&M chocolate (:

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: did you visit the doctor ? what did the doctor say ?

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: TEUH ~

Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIEDARKO?
A: no

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: not that lame to do SUCH THINGS ~

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: i will talk abt it LATER (:

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "ILOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
A: TO tiaraFOUR and ALFRED (: of course i mean it (:

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHTNOW?:
A: studying and sorting out my REDCROSS STUFFS -.-

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: TEUH . manymany cann ?!

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: not sure . until now .. NO (:

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THEFAMILY ?
A: me -.-

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: ya , quite (:

Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
A: yes i do . im trained (: by redcross -.-

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: i only see my bro use it ?

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPTBESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
A: RED CROSS CAMPSITE !! yayyay !! NDC (:

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: ya . on the stupid bus !! when shining stars are on our way for NYAA ?

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: I didnt watched any in the PAST TWO WEEKS (:

Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
A: i dont think so . seriously i feel they are quite SMART ?

Best
1. Male friend: i've MANY , alfredf00 ; gohxuanle ; edmundlim (past) ; malcolmf00h ; wongwengchew ; limyangzhi (:

2.Female friend: tiaraFOUR ; grace ; sunita ; jaslyn ; junru ; redcross peeps ; dora ; darlings (:

3. Vacation: bangkok

2. Day of the week: fridays ; saturdays ; sundays

3. Food: many luhs . uncountable (:

4 Memory: i had MANY HAPPY MEMORIES with ppl (: such as tiaraFOUR in EVERYWHERE ? and alfred foo in BEDOK area (: NDC ppl and REDCROSS ? i really had many happy moments wit many ppl though some doesnt exist ANYMORE ):

LAST
1. Person you saw : mummy n sister (:

2. Talked to on the phone : mummy and alfred ? both at same time (:

3. Hugged: that day where we knw our post at committe (: i hugged grace darling granny and jaslyn favourite (:

4. Person u texted : ALFRED FOO SIK BOON

Today
1. Is : relatively great
2. Got any plans : study ? and complete my redcross stuffs ):
3. Goal: get good grades and perform well in both redcross n studies . maintain the post as what im NOW !! (:
4. Dislikes about tomorrow : gonna be alone ? gotta decide to meet up with alfred to town or sunita darlyn to church (:

Favorites
1. Number(s) : you nvr knw . i got ALOT (:
2. Song : uncountable ya (:
3. Color : black ; white ; purple ; orange ; blue ; green ; cann say its ALL THE COLORS ya (:
4. Season : winter

Currently
1. Missing someone: TEUH !! alfred foo cann ?! no luhs . some OTHER GUY (:
2. Mood : tired ; moody ; sadd ; stress ; frustrated ; very disappointed !!

True or False
I am a morning person : i suppose
I am a perfectionist : i guess so
I am an only child : false
I am currently in my pajamas : false
I am currently single : true
I am online 24/7 : false
I am very shy around the opposite gender : false
I can be paranoid at times : true
I currently regret something that I have done : true
I enjoy talking on the phone : true
I have a lot to learn : true
I have a secret : false ; i've got MANY secrets =D

woohoos (:

210906 ;

went to JACK's PLACE with tiaraFOUR and had our lunch dere . humphs . was a really GREAT MOMENT ya (: ilovetiaraFOUR (: everything seems so GREAT uh !! hmmm nice nice luhs . i love the ice cream the most (:


220906 ;

hmmm . friday , first time attending redcross as a vice-chairperson n discipline head . hais . im dead nervous can ?! things didnt get on right . my khairul and the stupid farhan didnt turn up when they are the DI for that day ?! arghs . dhen me n dominic have to handle it all ): look into that sir's eyes cann see that he 's damn angry cann ?! hais . whatever -.- i dont give a damn about him . well . we play games and captain's ball dhen debrief . sir gave out consent form dhen sir wanns me to handle everything cause im the overall level in charge -.- gotta send the stupid sec1s' SANA REPORT to HQ at PS =.= damn far cann ?! dhen sir wanns me to brief on footdrill competition for year 2007 dhen very little ppl wanna join luhs . so not supportive de cann ?! irriating . i see liaos wanna vomit blood ahs . dhen i say i very disappointed . when sir say they very noisy dhen he ask me what am i doing dhen i was like ' cadets cann you all jus SHUT ur mouth ?' GONE !! im not suppose to use SHUT de but whatever luhs . who cares ? im really dead disappointed cann ?! humphs -.- dhen got alot of things for me to do luhs . wdh ?! arghs . hais . its really not easy jus being a overall level in charge . whats more ? im taking three post ?! arghs . lols -.- but i love the three post (: hmmm . had our sec2s debrief with matthew they all dhen dey say got 2007 committe reshuffle ): hais . im so scared cann ?! i wanna maintain and remain as the vice-chair ; discipline and overall level in charge luhs !! i knw i confirm vice - chair is strip off de luhs !!! arghs . whatever -.- hmmm . okays . dismissal dhen went baq to classroom to take baq . walaos . so dark luhs . ard 7 plus dhen i go into the dark room alone to switch on the lights for others . hahas . scary cann ?! to GOD'S grace , im not in fear . praise the lord (:
hhmmm . headed home . saw filzah at econ so went home wit her . hmmm . she told me many ghost stories -.- its so LATE AT NIGHT and she's scaring me ): BOO !! hahas . lols -.-
hmmm . she told me maisarah say we talk abt her ? whatever luhs MAISARAH . hahas . you wanna think of what dhen go ahead luhs . i've FORGIVE YOU for all the WRONGS that you have done to me cos as a CHRISTAIN , i have to forgive you WILLINGLY ): hmmm . reached home and bathed and went online . saw dar online dhen chatted . he promised me to go church next sun with me if he has NO TRAINING (: iloveyou dar (: im really so GLAD to have you baq as my closest precious (:


230906 ;

saturday (: was at home the whole day but darlyn called me and ask me to accompany her to church so i agreed (: iloveher (: we met at 4plus when we were suppose to meet at 3plus . im sorry . hahas . hmmmm . was really funn to hang out with her ; jus the two of us (:

hmmm . went to church dhen dismissed . her mates were friendly though !! hmmm . dhen went to pasamalam at TM dere (: shopped and bought a cup of watermelon juice . teehee (: was rather disappointed cos my wallet is SOLD OUT -.- hais . its GOD'S PLAN (: hmmm . i felt god's presence in me luhs ((: i cried though i acted strong somedays ): headed home . not much happened but really enjoyed the day alot !! wahahas . grace granny msged me and told me that THE GIRL blogged abt me . eeeww !! ycuks (: haven viewed her profile yet . im gonna view it (:




tata ppl (: lovelove . mwarkmwarks (: teehee (: GOD has HIS PLAN , don't WORRY (:

GRACE GRANNY ask me to help her do this SURVEY de (:

# single taken or crushing ?
- single

# are you happy with your life now ?
- humphs . alright . IF that BITCH stop all HER NONSENSE !!

# when you meet the right person , do you fall in love with him/her fast ?
- nope . it takes time to knw if i have feeling for him OR NOT !

# have you ever had your heartbroken ?
- TEUH ; obviously i do .

# do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love in acceptable ?
- hmmm . i DON'T KNW -

# would you take someone back if he cheats on you ?
- see if i still love him or NOT ; if its alfred , maybe i will (:

# have you talk about marriage with another before ?
- NOPE !! its far ahead still ya (:

# do you want children ?
- will decide about it LATER on -.-

# how many ?
- i said will decide about it LATER ON !!

# would you consider adoption ?
- NO !! i prefer .. hahas . lols .

# if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know your feelings ?
- see if i will think of HIM when im ALONE or NOT .

# do you enjoy getting into relationship ?
- its depends . of course if he's the guy i truly LOVE (:

# be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did ?
- LC ? hugg ? kiss ? lols ( shyshy) =P

# do you believe in love at first sight ?
- NOT SURE . until now .. NO (:

# are you romantic ?
- it depends on HOW MUCH i love that guy (:

# do you believe you can change someone ?
- yes i do . OF COURSE (:

# if you could get married somewhere, where would it be ?
- hmmm . its a SECRET . maybe will reveal it NEXT TIME -.-

# do you easily give in when you are fighting ?
- DEFINATELY NOT !! imma STUBBORN girl (:

# do you have feelings for someone right now ?
- YES , OF COURSE I DO (:

# if one day your best friend falls in love with the boy you deeply in love with, what would you do ?
- depends on what kinda friend is she . if she's PHYLLIS , i will say ' DREAM ON ' !! i will NEVER let her get the HAND of ALFRED (: but if she's my BESTEST FRIEND , i will give in ya =)

# are you missing someone now ?
- OBVIOUSLY (:

# now you'll have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs
; junru ; jane ; cheryl ; julin ; irene (:

hey ppl !! going out soon . meeting my darlingg ALFRED FOO (: BITCH , DUNN BE JEALOUS . hey ppl wanna knw whose the BITCH ? read my previous post . though its rather long . please bear wit it and you confirm cann find it one and you will knw who is THAT SHAMELESS BITCH luhs (: BYEBYE ~ i meeting ALFRED later . takecares . teehee (:

my happiest moment in life
hellos ppl !!

150906 ;

my happiest day in my WHOLE LIFE (:

hmmm . these few days were feeling rather low and lousy . really thank GOD that alfred was there for me every moment (: yes , eugene too but suddenly no me n eugene nvr contact liaos . WHATEVER -.- alfred , i really thank you so much . though our story ended so long ago but memories are still running fast ya ? rmb last night we were toking abt those days whr we came tgt to knw each other ? i will always remember changi funland . the very first place we met . it all begins with a story through changi funland (: those days were funn ! imiss bedok really much . memories are bringing me baq aqain . yes im afraid . i dunn wanna get hurt again but im so sure . this time round i wun fall for you again (: i hope so . hahas . now that we both are busy with our own life , please forgive me if i really cant fork out anytime to accompany cos i really got so much to do (: i also hope huimei and clarence will last , nicholas and joyi , peiyan and fit ben , jasmin and roland , lastly , yongkai and his girl (forgotten her name) =x llook . our companies are all attached except us . wakakas . we were once tgt and the first one to start this relationship followed by them and we were also the first one that ended the love game (: tears were dwn . heart were broken . past is still past . we cant turn baq time anymore so we shall live on well then (:


rmb on the fone ? we quarrelled . hahas . those days . really funn and enjoyable . we had our happy , sad and funn moments tgt not forgetting abt quarrels . but we are seriously the UNIQUE couple cos we SELDOM quarrel luhs . wakakas . oops =x

stupid alfred . i pity ur parents ehh !! wakakas . how cann you like that ? move hse to tam dhen dunn nid go baq bedok liaos meh ? so bad luhs . ps them -.- not like me , always go bedok although im staying at SK okays !! hahas . stupid luhs alfred . thought sengkang is angmokio ? how lame cann you ever get ? hahas .

hehs !! life is not always gd . you see me n alfred , is really a super duper GOOD example for everyone . we stead , we broke up but now we are still friends . NOT JUS FRIENDS but BEST FRIENDS (: he's my closest GUY FRIEND NOW (: dunn anyhow think ya . he told me many secrets .

well , got smth to say , got this PARTICULAR BITCH actually backstab ME in front of ALFRED !! that BITCH is from MY SCHOOL . PHYLLIS ? you really deserve to be CALLED THE BITCH . ask urself what you backstab abt me IN FRONT of ALFRED ? are you NOT SILLY to do that ? ARE YOU NOT SMART ENOUGH to remember that IM ALFRED'S EX ? do you NOT KNW ME ? why ? me n alfred stead you not happy ah ? dunn act gd in front of me okays . you tell jiexin what ? you say SERAPHINE mix with sunita and us dhen become bad ? please luhs . let me tell you the REAL REASON . the reason IS .. because , you simply ARE JEALOUS of her because she has MANY FRIENDS than you . why ? NOT HAPPY WIT ME ah ? GO BACKSTAB ME lor . GO call alfred and backstab me again luhs . see ALFRED is gan you or who lor ? PLEASE . LET ME SPELL OUT THE WORDS NOW ; look at MY BLOG CAREFULLY .. ALFRED FOO , knw what kind of PERSON are you NOW . so u jolly WELL stop all ur nonsense and keep ur BIG MOUTH SHUT . dunn mess ard wit me . you wun enjoy it (: i wonder why you so LOVE to backstab ppl ? so love to BREAK UP PPL'S FRIENDSHIP . what ? you think me and alfred break already dhen you cann STEAD WIT ALFRED ah ?! TALK CORK AND DREAM ON luhs . you go and ask alfred luhs . me and alfred still AS CLOSE lehs . SHORTY . so SHORT wanna TALK SO MUCH FOR WHAT ? you knw what ? ALFRED TOLD ME , he find you DAMN BITCHY sia . oops =x so sadd uh . wanna stead with the HANDSOME GUYS ryte ? too bad . ALFRED SAY U , PHYLIS LIM , is a BITCHY KAOBEI BITCH . thats what he said to me . i didnt add any words inside . i guess ALFRED is NOT the FIRST GUY who said THAT BAH ? haha !! SO SAD . so what if im ugly ? do you think i GIVE A DAMN abt it ? i DON'T (: i knw im ugly but at least im beautiful in GOD'S eyes . unlike you , NO LIFE . you think you pretty ? you think you ah lian ? ohh !! im SO SCARED mans . BITCH . YOU JOLLY WELL , GET OUT OF MY LIFE alryte . GET URSELF A LIFE . dun get JEALOUS of MY LIFE cos MY LIFE isnt GOOD AT ALL . YOU cann NEVER BE ME . cos im the UNIQUE ONE that GOD specially made me by HIS own MIGHTY HANDS . im the ONE AND ONLY TAN CHEE YEN . YOU CAN ? NO !! YOU CANT . NEVER OKAYS . shoo ~ you go .. wahahas -


alright . shant talk abt that freaking BITCH ~ SPOILED MY MOOD ;

hmmm . friday is quite a gd day ? i guess yes (: had geo in the morning followed by english . sia luhs ~ got english reteste sia . scared sia . kena shocked bodoh ~ dhen bell rang , haven complete yet !! wahahahas ): dhen amrita told us monday still cann do -.- please luhs ; dunno how to say earlier mehs ? wakakas . dhen waste my recess time . hahas . lames -.- ate chicken rice i think . shit !! i forgotten what we ate on friday !! arghs !! got STM liaos . die liaos . wakakas . hmmm . dhen had maths class and pc . lesson was still alright . enjoyable . understanding . wakakas . during pc , we choose our sub luhs and career . many things that i wanna be . i dunno which to choose . first choice is english ; maths ; chinese ; chem and bio ; POA ; ss and history i think . second choice is english ; maths ; chinese ; chem and phy ; DNT ; ss and GEO bahs . haiyo . its jus a trio luhs . wakakas (:

aft sch , went to canteen dhen started playing wit breasty . she kip aiming my breast . she wanna touch my breast but too bad , i got a new way of attacking her . last time is i scared of her . now is she scared of my water bottle !! wakakas . hmmm . breasty went home . darlyn and me went to mummum . granny tagged along but didnt eat anything . jaslyn went for band with jeanette and left the three of us at canteen . redcross start -.- went up to redcross room . started the 2007 chair and vice chairperson voting . woahs . scary . i didnt prepare any speech luhs . walalas . hahas . i anyhow say luhs dhen followed by idah and dom . dey both got speech . dhen matthew NCO helped khairul n weiben to speak cos dey went for malay prayers and counsilor respectively . hahas . hmmm . then was given one minute to go home econ room . gd enuff i guess . hahas . lols -.- dhen started cooking . sir kept calling my name and say i didnt take charge of discipline -.= fine !! my fault (: hahas . i dunn care . jus scream for the sake of screaming lor . kekes (:


okays . cooked like abt 4 dishes ? so cool luhs . redcross cann be funn at times too (: hmmm . alryte . finised cooking . packed up and everything . everyone went to outside redcross room as intructed by sir but all were not organised . sir angry dhen wann all go H-BLOCK fall in lor . dhen give out SYF , NDP and NATIONAL CAMP certificate and badges . yayyay !! i got my SYF cert liaos !! i also got the BADGE lers !! wakakas . bleahs . hmmm . then its the scariest time !! its ANNOUNCING THE COMMITTE FOR NEXT YEAR 2007 . i was like HUH ?! so fast ? got voting today and got the ans straight sia . then my heart started beating quickly . majiam my heart dropping out luhs . wakakas . okays . announced and i got discipline and overall level IN-CHARGE . i was okays . at least got a post . dhen come to vice chair and chair liaos . dhen everyone was like xuanle and dom will chair n vice chair de but when they said out the vice chairperson's name , i knw it shocked everyone . i couldnt believe it too . i got the vice-chairperson ?! cann you believe it ? im the only one with two post . xuanle didnt get any and of cos the chairperson goes to ... DOMINIC KOH !! hahas . hais . i was really damn shocked . i knw everyone thinks that i dun fit to be a vice chair of im in an academic normal class but please dunn judge me in these way too . i knw some of you will think that i got the two post and both are in the top five post is bcos of the help of sec3s but actually , no . they really didnt do anything to help me . please dunn accuse them nor accuse me . but i hope in the future we cann work well tgt . im a beginner . i nid advice frm all of you guys too . hahas . hmmm . there will be 2 RESHUFFLE OF committe post so .. if you guys wanna be the vice chair , dhen start to work hard and climb alright . i will do my best too . as i have promised farhan and the sec3s that i will try my very best to give redcross whatever i cann and i will do it . alright . after the announcing . everyone was dismissed dhen left me n dominic . the R&D wanan talk to us abt our part n duties as a chair and vice-chairperson . hmmm . dora , shermain , irene , matthew , yewsuan and junqing sir all talked to me and told me abt what i shld do . hmmm . its rather late . abt 7plus liaos . so went off to find gracey granny and jas . dey told me ghost story -.- walaos . i scared de ryte . hahas . as if luhs . humphs . dhen sent granny home and me n jas went home liaos . wakakas . today is the most enjoyable day for redcross . hahas . im really so happy to knw that i got the post i wanted . sir asked me during the interview what post i wann , i told him i wann discipline and second i wan chairperson and gd enuff i got discipline and vice chair . at least i got the post i wanted ryte . im really so grateful n thankful luhs . iloveGOD . thank GOD (: PRAISE THE LORD . everything i got today is all that GOD has blessed me with . he 's the ONLY ONE who deserves MY PRAISE (:


as shermain says , i got shermain ; dora and irene's genes . i behave like them . hahas . oops =x am i that crazy ? X)



hmmm . went home and changed . bathed and headed to airport cos pricilla cousin going to england for FOUR YEARS jus for the study -.- hais . gonna miss her dearly mans . she's one of my bestest cousin can ?! wakakas . always go her hse for swimming and go shopping tgt . hais . hope FOUR YEARS will pass QUICKLY . by the time , i will be 18 years old liaos . humphs . hahas (: so fast . really so fast . hahass . MISSES darling . gotta take GOOD care of urself alryte . dunn make us worry for u cos we are not with you dere (: becareful uh . dunn loose things easily liaos hors (: wakakas . takecares . teehees (: ytd went to airport . sent her off . i really cried out . one of my bestest cousin going off mans . not by my side for FOUR YEARS luhs . hais . cant imagine if my closest cousin go off . i mean the bedok de cousin luhs . i think i cant survive luhs . hahas . oops =x FOUR YEARS PLEASE PASS QUICKLY (:




alright . went to swens and ate ice cream . teehees . hmmm . dhen took 27 home . alfred msged me when he on his way home . i was also on my way home luhs . wakakas . hmmm . he say wanna call me dhen i was like okays but immediately when i reached home , i slept . teehee . wakakas . gonna meet alfred today . 160906 ; SATURDAY (: alfred JIO me out . PHYLLIS SHUT UR MOUTH luhs - BYEBYE ~ gonna meet alfred then . he 's COMING TO SENGKANG TO FETCH ME !! awww !! SO SWEET !! JEALOUS ah ? ask him come SENGKANG fetch you also luhs ? he fetching me and accompanying me to go town gaigai lehs . you lehs ? i think he sending you off at IMH luhs . go home luhs ~ disgusting SHAMELESS BITCH (:

hellos ppl !! humphs ! i GOT A LOT to blog abt luhs . but i saved it in draft . so next time dhen tell you guys abt my NDC and SWIMMING times (: now tell you abt my class days (: iHATE vincent toh jun jie luhs . stupid sir . SCOLD ME IN PUBLIC during international bazzar luhs . nvm . will post it up abt what happened wit NDC and stuff tgt (: humphs . dhis whole week , ilove schooling . started learning chap 6 and gonna proceed to chp 7 soon for science . wakakas . oops =x humphs . stupid son . ilove LIM YANG ZHI (: he's my most baobei son i ever had luhs . he's hell CUTE luhs . although her always bully me ): in computer lab force me to write testee for him . somemore wann 1000words de . so i talk crap lo . humphs . dhen he knw my blog de pw dhen he wann hack so i bit his HAIR . ahas . oops . too bad . now mummy change pw liaos . CANNOT GET IN . ooh o =x hahas . bleahs =D hmmm . many things happened . i wish i could turn baq time but NTH is POSSIBLE in turning time back to the past (:

hmmm . went out with granny , darlyn and favourite that day and saw rowena , jeanette , angel and huiting and all the sec2B boys -.- dey were all crapping luhs . i like FAEAST . hahas . oops =x hmmm . as a fren luhs . wakakas . hhmmm . dunno what happened liaos .

today is 140906 ;

had chinese class in the morning . first period . tied my hair and very satisfied bcos very neat . kekes . dhen the stupid ZHIHONG and YANGZHI grabb my hand dhen bring me frm the front all the way to the baq and i pinch dhem dhen everything started wit pinching and we ended up fighting . hahas . oops . dhen the TWO STRONG boys dragg me and wanna lock me inside the cabin luhs . NO WAY mans . wakakas . luckily im still as strong to defend dhen help myself . hahas . iloveMALCOLM . he helped me oso but he cant do anything too cos the two stupid boys are BULLYING me !! hahas . hmmm . dhen the stupid ma'am toh come in . she kpkb us dhen wann us go baq to original seats if not threaten to call MR KUAN . walaos . i oso not scared luhs . but since im suppose to sit with YANGZHI so i go baq de lor dhen cann crap with that stupid SON who ALWAYS BULLY me ?! wakakas . hmmm . dhen we crapp and play dhen ended up fighting again den we shout shout and play . hahas . den the stupid ma'am toh scold us . LAO AH MA . so noisy . HEHS !! den she say wanna separate us . wakakas . disgusting . no matter whr we go still cann communicate de luhs . even during exams we still communicate luhs . wakakas . me and yangzhi son so darn FCUKING dulan so we went out of the class dhen crap and make noise outside . hahas . very funn dhen the OLD AHMA come out dhen kpkb us again den we no choice mus go in cos our class only in front of GENERAL OFFICE . haahs . disgusting . she say we very daring dhen she wanna report . SIAO de luhs . erxin . wakakas . oops =x
todays very funn . im angry with that KHAIRUL . ytd msg me and scold me for NO REASON . pls luhs . im gonna msg him and tell him off liaos . tok to him nicely no work dhen i go rude one liaos . i dunn give a FCUKING DAMN abt it luhs . dhen today had a chat with filzah . whatever -.- hmmm . todays went out with gracey granny and sunita darlyn after my meeting . ilovethem . waited for me luhs . then the jaslyn go for band without telling luhs . hehs . everytime like that . use to it liaos luhs . hmmm . dhen the three of us went to RM and had our LUNCH but darlyn gotta go off liaos so we eat fast fast . hahas . dhen rain =.- we ran all the way frm RM to RM de LRT . siao de luhs . wakakas. we are really crazy . dhen dhis uncle say what raining liaos . dhen sunita go scold him ask him SHUDDUP LUHS . hahas . so bad ryte ?! wakakas . thats her . she's cute luhs (:

hmmm . went home nd NOW blogging and gracey granny jus went offline cos she got tuition . humphs . stupid ALFRED !! kip msging me dhen i scold him . hahas . i say him alot of stupid things . bleahs (: i say him stupid and stuff den he very angry . hahas . here he comes again . MSG !! hahas . okays guys . gotta go !! takecares . lovelove ppl (:


im so touched . everyday msging with ALFRED . it has been LONG since we last chatted everyday ?! wakakas . 100605 ; are you try to tell me you are baq ?! wakakas . i will be darn happy . hahas . oops =x


i seriously love the cuteness and sweetness of ALFRED FOO SIK BOON but im gonna kill him soon okays . he SPELLED my name WRONGLY !! arghs !! hehs !! wakakas . anyways , i wanna thanks eugene , alfred and my FAVOURITE tiaraFOUR (: for doing all the cheering up for me . im really happy , touched and i feel blessed to have frens like you guys (: i really thank GOD (:


i GOT SOMETHING TO BLOG . its a BAD NEWS (: READY ? !! GO !!!!!


LAST BUT NOT LEAST ;

I HATE THE FCUKING PENGUINE !!
I HATE THE FCUKING DUSTBIN PLUS GRASS !!
I HATE THE FCUKING TIKO !!
I HATE THE FCUKING KHAIRUL !!

takecares ppl . loveya . tatta . teehee (:

yes sunita darlyn . i think what you say are all true . why must i be the ONE missing him and loving him ? when he is missing another ONE yet NOT ME . why am i hurting myself by doing that ? shldnt i jus concentrate in class more and there are more ppl who loves me than he do . i cann say that he dunn even like me . ilove 2c06 though problems are everywhr now ?! nvm . yesyes . i cann rely on my tiaraFOUR and my forever malcolm . how could i forget abt my tiaraFOUR ? how could i forget abt MALCOLM ? malcolm , im sorry for whatever i've done to you in the past . if i did hurt you , i apologise . i didnt mean to do it . everytime when im sad , u were there . everytime when i need someone who cares ALOT abt me and spare me a pair of listening ears , you were there . whenever im angry , im SO UNREASONABLE that i knw i cant be bothered , you were there to cheer me up and bear with all my unreasonable scoldings . i scolded u for NO REASON when you jus wanna cool me dwn , you didnt get angry and even show me that you really care . when im crying , you were the arms that hold me so tightly that i knw i wun fall . i hope you will still be here for me and walk wit me thru out (: i hope our friendship will really last . i dunn wanna lose you thats why i made that decision . i knw you fit to have a better girl . seriously , im not ur type . im a unreasonable girl and you are a understanding decent boy . u will suffer if u tag wit me -


of course i wun forget abt my tiaraFOUR . yes , quarrels are hard to avoid . we had our BIGGEST quarrel recently and i have no one to turn to but now we are all FINE (: i hope and pray hard that nth will happen to us and such thing wun happened again (: u guys really mean ALOT to me . i cant live without you . you guys were the one who were with me when im about to fall . you guys with malcolm along are the one who gave me dhis special hand that pulled me baq and stand up again . my tears that were shed for you guys are worth , and i will always rmb what you guys always tell me . '' dun cry for the guy bcos he DON'T worth my tears , THE GUY who WORTH my tears will NVR make me cry .''


GUYS , I REALLY GOTTA tell you all , iloveyou guys really LOADS (:

BOY , you knw that its u . why must you be so direct to me ?! yes i knw we cant be tgt . but why cant you give me a dream whr i cann live with ; tat a hope i will trust in that one day we will be tgt ? the words to said to me really hurts me ALOT . why ? tell me why u think that we cant be tgt ? hais . since you have said that you had a stead for two days , then dunn tell me that im the first girl who made you fell for me so deeply cos im so sure that there'll be a second one . im needing a guy who cann share wit me my problems and not a guy who say he cant be wit me . you knw today i felt so sad bcos of the fcuking sir and now you are telling me that we cant be tgt . how many times do u wann me to cry ?


[ ppl this is what he wrote to me ; " actually..i really wish i could be with u.i know its useless saying all these now.but..yar.it jus seems to me tat..we cant.i also dun wish to add on ur stress anymore cheeyen.seeing u so stressed up,hurts me too.i jus wish for u to be happy kays.yea..mayb yar..u should move on kays.im jus happy to see u happy.so..mus be happy yea.sorry. " ]


heys ppl . tell me how hurt cann i not be ? how strong am i gonna face dhis FACT ? do u think im strong enuff ? didnt i tell you that im so weak ? i need your love ? i really do . i really couldnt believe my eyes that you reacted like nth happened when i told u that the post wasnt referring to you . perhaps i cant blame u cos mayb u really tot that its not referring to you . you told me all these words when u knw that its useless . i dunn feel that its useless but i feel that at least i knw how u are feeling now but do u have to tell me that we cant be tgt ? you can smile and pretended nth happened but i cant . i really cant . you made me cry again . you kip telling me and you were smiling but im really sorry . i cant . i wun be happy jus by smiling . i am tired . i really am . i cant put on these fake smiles anymore . i cann act as if im happy but tell me how long cann i last ? i wished that you have nvr said those words at all . do you love me ? why must you hurt me ?!


tell me why dhis world is all abt love ? yes . i really take dhis chance to thank eugene and alfred foo sik boon . dhis two shuai ge(s) . you guys talked to me and comfort me when im crying . u guys cheered me up . esp alfred . i dunno why but until now i still believes bcos u show me that and that is , i always believe that GOD made you the guy who will always be there for me when im sad and when im crying 0over other things . true enuff . whenever im crying , u will jus like automatically msg me . im really happy . even when u gotta go to school NOW , you bothered to ask me to smile like ALL OF A SUDDEN ?! im really pleased and touched . love GOD . now im msging with eugene and alfred cos they both went offline . eugene dunno go whr but alfred is on his way to SSS (:


alfred ; darling boy , gotta takecare of urself in school okays . if u are not feelin well , dunn run okays . lovelove . always rmb , iwill also be there for u whenever you nid me (:

hellos ppl . have been long since i last blogged . gonna update u guys abt whats happening and going on dhese few days . hais . my life is no longer so smooth lers . what to do ? jus gotta accept it . its all part and parcels of life yea ? hais . im speechless . jus wait for my next upcoming SUPER DUPER LONG post (:


ilovehim but i cant do anything . i cann only shud my mouth and pretended iloveyou no more . i could say many words that cann sound as if i dun love you anymore but its really hurting me INSIDE OUT . maybe u feel that im jus acting hurt OUTSIDE IN . its all up to u to believe . but now i have learnt how to MOVE ON and GIVE UP , that i gotta walk my life WITHOUT u . i will forget u oneday like how u made me forget abt him . im sure that there will be guys outta that cann make me forget you too . i wun wanto DEPEND on you tooo . im tired . im feeling so helpless but ur words of comforting are not as gd as it was in the past . would u love me like how u did LAST SUMMER ? everyday i hope that i'll hear smth SO NEW frm u that you miss me too but i knw its NVR POSSIBLE . i will say i will stop loving you and move on . i will rather find dhis guy who is always by my side comforting me whenever im feeling dwn and NVR fail to make me smile -

sigh .. haven finish my NYAA . gonna burn midnight oil again :( BOO !! my mind really goes BLANK luhs dear . hehs . hais . dunn say you swear that you quit cos im really worried abt what u are toking abt . lols -.- anyways , ive quit _m__ing . lols -.- but drinking can nvr get out of my life :( ilovehim . he makes me unable to concentrate well .


WHATEVER -.-


i knw i will always have EDMUND LIM GUO RONG by my side NO MATTER what happens and im really contented (: he 's really jus a simple and sweet dear i have (:

but alfred is even sweeter . kekes . lols -.-

alryte . byebye . waiting for mummy to come home . im gonna do my NYAA booklet now (: hais . mummy went to hospital . dunno what to do now . thinking if she wanns to go for the operation or not ? im really worried luhs . i seriously nid the fcuking pair of fcuking listening ears !! arghs !! lmao -.-


takecares ppl . tata . llalalas . teehee (:

030906 ;

woahs . time is really flying so quickly . EOY is coming liaos but haven even started revising . hais . NYAA luhs . fed up okays . waste my time only . if i were to fail , im gonna CRY !! arghs . lols -.-
im SO TANNED now . so dark and red luhs . like roasted PIG ?! arghs . lols -.-

everyone is laughing at me :( no one ask if im okays . i nid some care n concern frm PPL !! lols . humphs . woke up at 10 plus nd mummy gave me $ 10 and went out . i cooked maggie mee and went to bath . finish bathing , ate maggie mee and headed to compassvale LRT to take 27 to TM cos suppose to meet wenling and olivia at 12:15 dere but dey were late -.- i tot im going to be late but i reached dere bfore dem . lols . humphs . so went for service . met up wit suni darlyn first . she told me lotsa things . my heart is really broken when i heard all abt it . how could grace think of me in that way ? nonono . grace , im NOT ANGRY wit you at all . you are my precious granny . iwill NVR get angry wit you . hais . speechless . hmmm . WHATEVER -.- went into church and sang songs and had the LORD SUPPER . felt the presence of GOD and start crying for all the things that are beening NOW :( i cried and i really hope that everything will go baq into normal soon . hais . i will leave everything unto the LORD and let him DECIDE ):

aft service , skipped cell cos gotta do NYAA thingy so went off with suni darlyn and found out i forgotten to bring my bottle along so went baq to hall but couldnt find it so we give up and went to toilet . we were laughing all the way luhs . how silly are we ? making a FOOL of myself . hahas (: humphs . okays . took train and terminate at tenamerah and change mrt and headed to city hall . walked to marina square . at first darlyn wanted to eat mac but i received the yoshinoya coupon and gave it to her and she changed her mind and we went to yoshinoya . lols . went dere and the supervisor told me " erm miss , cann i tell you smth but you have to promise me not to be angry ? " dhen i was like ? huhs ?! alryte i wun . dhen she told me her workers wann my number dhen i told her " oh ya ya ya " suni darlyn and me were laughing like hell lahs . what a LAME JOKE the supervisor cann come out with . aft eating our dinner , headed to arcade and para again (: played n played . crazied and crazied . suni darlyn and me was like NTH HAPPENED ON THURSDAY !! hahas . she BULLIED me !! we went shopping aft that dhen went crazy again . wanted to buy dhis nice top but it DOESNT SUIT me AT ALL . arghs !! :(

okays . suni darlyn and i were shopping half way and her sis called and told her smth and we were laughing like hell . what a FOOL thingy to be shock of luhs . wakakas . oops =x SUNI DARLYN !! plaster . wakakas . lols -.-

okays . headed to CITY HALL mrt and went to outram and changed train and headed baq to sk . we dropped off at RP and i went to buy food for bro to eat and once again without fail zhihong called me and ask me to go RM to pey him eat -.- i was like NO PLEASE . haahs . lols . humphs . went up the stairs and saw suni's mum . hahas . ran up like there 's a ghost behind ?! hahas . dhen suni went home and i headed home ALONE :( humphs . went home and passed bro his food . went dwn and waited for jas like an hour dhen she come ?! she told me she's at my hse dwnstairs thats why i rushed dwn but she's at RP ?! arghs . lols -.-


went home and did my NYAA and 2007 RECRUITMENT DRIVE and now posting . lols -.- im really busy . no time for entertainment :( lols -.-

anyways , i really ENJOYED my day today with SUNI DARLYN . mwarks . ireally love her and i really treasure her like how i did last summer (:


BOY I MISS YOU MAN !! haahs . lols -.-


ilove EDMUND DEAR !! he 's really so SWEET luhs . nvr fail to pey me EVERYDAY !! and chat on the fone whenever im free . sorry dear cos nowadays got NYAA to do so ps-ed you for dhis month . sorry . bear with it okays (: im going for camp soon dhis coming fri and sat . treasure me bfore i go okays (: lovelove . tata . teehees (: mwarks <33

the girl next door that people have been talking abt but now im more like a girl in IMH . lols -.-
its always so colourful eversince you enter into my life but colors faded aft you left :(

having my dinner and lunch at mediacorp while waiting for our turn to go for the cheer leading . lol -.-

yesyes . i do miss you and i really do . but what cann i do ? will you tell me you miss me too ?you are then the freaking BAD INFLUENCE to me . BITCH . dunn you ever dare call my friends a bad influence luhs -
he 's the boy that i nvr wanted to let go . he brings sunlight and smiles into my life whenever im down . LIM YANG ZHI is always my favourite darling son (:
this pair of eyes are the eyes that have been crying for you . you causes it to be SO RED -

orange is jus what i love -
story behind this fairy 'tail' (tale)
they are the couple that LAST (:
dont judge me by the companies im mixing wit . dont call them bad influence bcos they are never a bad influence in my life . THEY SIMPLY RAWK -
dont judge me by my look . dont call me an ah lian cos im not . yesyes . everyone have got smth that they have to leave behind and i have to leave you behind -
ur love is what i need . im so weak :(
yes yes . indeed im gonna make somebody love me <33
ilove dhis picture loads . yes i do . shermain aunty is inside . weets (:
i cant deny that im fat . hahas . lol -.-
SHINING STARS PROGRAMME (: gohxuanle !! dun pull my hair !! arghs -
speechday marching contigent . i miss those time we spent tgt . iwill cherish all the marching days . im really disappointed to knw that next yr there wun be footdrill anymore :( im really sad -
redcross sec2s shining stars 2006 . ilove them (:
FPC night (:
arghs !! OUTSIDE SUNLOVE HOME . the home whr i got molested . arghs . im still as scared . phoebia :(
SYF O6 ; yesyes . our hard work pays off . we marched out the parade sucessfully (:
yes yes . indeed unity is strength . SHOW THEM !!
SYF photo . taken in HQ before going for SYF real opening ceremony . lols -.- imiss those days (:
do you guys still rmb who is he ? ohmygoodness . he really had changed . ilovehim like hell as a FRIEND (: he's really sweet , even now (: he will always be remembered as the sweetest boyfriend i ever had (: